What happened when I moved through healthcare as a fat clinician who refused to disappear

Perimenopause strips away our capacity to tolerate the intolerable. The people-pleasing stops working. The masking stops working. The endless emotional labor stops working. We become less willing to abandon ourselves for institutions that would replace us in a week.

Maybe this transition is not asking us to become calmer, quieter, prettier, or more accommodating.

Maybe it is asking us to become fully awake.